ebesuki's Xanga

seldom sadness

Mon, 04 May 2009 02:47:25 GMT

it takes me a while to figure out how to use the new xanga...
yea,,, new,,,, because i haven;t used it for such a long long time~~~

I have to write it down here, dun want too many people to know my sadness on facebook.......

I am having an emotional breakdown...
I am emotionally so fragile to a point that I can fill my eyes with tears any single moment...

I dunno why I am so sad...
Possible reason
1. I cry nearly for an hour last night because of someone
   I care about someone when I booked any flight, she said she want to wait for another girl,
   but tell her there is only 2 places left, and asked her to make a choice
   end up she buy the tickets for her and another girl,
    I can (1) pay US$200 more or (2) travel 2.5 by bus to the nearby city, then leave from there
    I choose (2), just not want to spend so much money....
    the whole things is not about my departure time and money,
    it;s an accumulated thing between me and one girl...
    I am just so silly,,,, dunno why when i loved and care about someone, I will demand for the same level of love and care back... silly, silly, silly

2. i will miss my friends here. have nearly 0% of chance to see them...
    can't believe i am feel a bonding with my two suitemates here so soon....
    they are soooooooo nice... being barely ever have the chance to see them makes me really, really sad....
    i just cannot talk to them today... i cry immediately before i start talking....

3. i dun want to face the reality back home
    year 2 summer... really in need of an intern that i want... pressure of the gloomy economy...
    i dun want to graduate
    i have to take summer course to pull up my CGA... I am losing my scholarship... again no a matter of money... but a matter of effort that i have put in... ashame of myself

I am a judgement person, i love to have everything planned, i.e. my after sem travel plan is planned at least 2 months ago...
Now SUDDENLY ask me to
1. cancel the trip
2. search for a new flight ticket home
3. suddenly dun have time to say goodbye to friends here
4. suddenly have an additional exam tmr

i just can't take it...

i get sick after crying so much yesterday...
i know people won;t believe it...
i got skin allergy everytime i cry really hard...
my body defect will not work when i am SAD...

Ignore my whole entry please...
i will be perfectly fine when i arrive home...
just being silly and a cry baby today...

P.S. When I read this 5 years later,
I will laugh at myself, saying "How come I am so stupid when I am 21?"
hahhahah
life must go on,
i know =)
i just need time to take the fact*

Bullshit is always easier than real action

Sun, 21 Dec 2008 19:23:21 GMT

I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why bullshit is always eaiser than real action?!

Why do someone volunteer for help when they dun really mean it?!

Yea, volunteering at the last minute when things are ALL ready?
And when something goes wrong,
no one stand out for help?!

From a friend "I have already get used to the fact. So I just keep silent..."

Yea, F-A-C-T.
Business eats people up!

I am still angry because I still have the passion,
what about you?

Disappointed.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Sun, 14 Dec 2008 16:24:11 GMT

保持通話出左DVD la~~~
大S好好戲, 古天樂都OK~
陳木勝超級掂!
套戲真係好好好好好好好好好好好好睇！

For UST students: 爆好grade既engineering course

Sat, 13 Dec 2008 16:12:21 GMT

Elec 005

-- Lecture 10%
I have only attend 3 lectures throughout the whole semesters
probably have lost that 10% attendance mark

-- Lab sessions 50%
I have been late for all lab sessions (from 10:30pm-1:30pm),
I have never arrived before 11:45pm,
but for 90% of the lab session, you will be always able to leave within 1 hour.
for the fastest 3 labs, I only use 15 mins.

-- Group project 20% --Video
I have got an extremely great group!!!!!!!!!!
I am an idoit on video editing,
so lucky to have them!!!!!!!!

-- Individual project 20% --Video
Have no time in the last week,
use the old advertisement that our group shot for marketing
only have used around 4 hours for editing the video...

total effort put on the courses throughout the semesters
3 lectures x 2 hrs       = 6hrs
8 lab sessions x 1 hr = 16hrs
individual project       = 4 hrs
group project             = 5 + 3 hrs
Total = 34 hrs throughout the semester!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And I got a "A-"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Grading throughout the whole class
A range = 34 (A+ = 8; A =12; A- = 14)
B range = 28 (B+ = 13; B = 8; B- = 7)
C range =1

How can there be a course which gives over 53% of students "A",
and nearly everyone (over 98%) A or B range?!

YOU GUYS HAVE TO TAKE THIS COURSE!!!!!!!!

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End of my only exam today~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
3.5 weeks of holiday~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Sunday, December 07, 2008

Sun, 07 Dec 2008 17:45:11 GMT

I am sick since thursday...

just finish a 14 pages SOSC paper!!!!

It's 2:43am, and I am finally going to start my bmgb term paper~~~~~~~~
8 pages~ deadline: tmr 5pm!!!

Can I use triple-lined spacing?

God bless...

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10:35am, just wake up... ...

8 pages within 5 hours

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5:00pm

Just finished bmgb at the very last minute,
so luck to have Yan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DAMN IT!!!!!
Sosc paper last, last, last deadline today at 5:45pm

I AM UNDER GREAT PRESSURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What the hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Sat, 22 Nov 2008 02:19:52 GMT

I am a really emotional person,
just because of a causal bet,
I am revising for my marketing exam right now...

hahahaha... I will not lose!

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Tue, 21 Oct 2008 09:10:52 GMT

BMGB201   --No Final Examination = Replaced by Term Paper
ELEC005    --No Final Examination
LANG111    --No Final Examination
MARK242   --No Final Examination
SOSC179   --Final Examination = Replaced by Essay
SOSC229 --13-Dec-2008 (Sat)     08:30-10:00

I love this semester!!!

Leaving HK on Jan 3 ;)

A great article to share

Tue, 07 Oct 2008 16:15:12 GMT

How a beggar make use of marketing theory & the SWOT analysis

http://202.67.138.84/hkim/pdf0809/1_Chairman%20Speaking.pdf

勁屈機!!!

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 15:10:10 GMT

好想擁有夢想...
可是我想不到 =P

依家既人生好materialistic

29+1

Tue, 23 Sep 2008 14:06:46 GMT

I have watched a drama called 29+1 last sunday,
truly touched...

many scenes are replaying in my mind,
why do I only have career goals,
rather than a dream?

pathetic

especially when I am studying hard for a mid term,

what am I doing with the last 2 years of my university life?